What Depression Feels Like To Me
Depression has been something I have battled with for a very long time. For the majority of that time I didn't even know what it was. I didn't know why I felt so low and lethargic all the time. Now I have come to know and understand myself and my body so much more and I know what I am having low days/weeks and occasionally months.
To me it feels slow. It feels empty and yet so heavy. My body becomes too tired to function and I get little joy out of anything in life. Activities that would usually bring me joy I suddenly either can't focus enough to do them or even when I do I struggle to appreciate the happiness it used to bring me. Instead I am left wondering why it is no longer making me feel elated and at peace. When I am feeling blue everything feels dark - even on a sunny day. I feel like a car with flat tires, the power I know I should have but just too flat to carry on. For me, depression doesn't make me feel endlessly sad, if anything it robs me of all emotion at all. I just feel like a husk of the person I know I should be.
It is hard to imagine that there will be good days again when you've been experiencing so many bad days, but I am learning that when I have a bad day I just have to live through it. I've got to try and do simple things and hope that tomorrow will be a better day.
Please remember that every goes through different emotions and feelings through depression and this is just how I feel. Perhaps I won't be the only one who feels like this, but if you have different symptoms feel free to share them so that other people can relate.
To me it feels slow. It feels empty and yet so heavy. My body becomes too tired to function and I get little joy out of anything in life. Activities that would usually bring me joy I suddenly either can't focus enough to do them or even when I do I struggle to appreciate the happiness it used to bring me. Instead I am left wondering why it is no longer making me feel elated and at peace. When I am feeling blue everything feels dark - even on a sunny day. I feel like a car with flat tires, the power I know I should have but just too flat to carry on. For me, depression doesn't make me feel endlessly sad, if anything it robs me of all emotion at all. I just feel like a husk of the person I know I should be.
It is hard to imagine that there will be good days again when you've been experiencing so many bad days, but I am learning that when I have a bad day I just have to live through it. I've got to try and do simple things and hope that tomorrow will be a better day.
Please remember that every goes through different emotions and feelings through depression and this is just how I feel. Perhaps I won't be the only one who feels like this, but if you have different symptoms feel free to share them so that other people can relate.
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